I Never Noticed You're so Amazing...{Jimmy Urine fanfic}

[defenestr8]

This is a serial story which means it's in parts. So i'll be putting up a new part [or "Chapter" ¬_¬] about every week. If not, it's probabally just cos I've been too busy...Anyway! This is the 1st part of my story! Enjoy! Oh and comment! 0x0.

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I can’t believe it. I’m actually going to see my favourite band ever - Mindless Self Indulgence! Being a fan since I was 13, I’m finally going to get to see them now I’m 18. Mum never did like them. She said that she didn’t want her little girl listening to “That Gibberish”, Never mind going to see them.

And now finally, because I’m older now and out of my parents house (but into a shitty apartment), me, Aryssa Bell, Is going to see MSI!

I was just off the bus when Eric appeared. Eric Scott, my best friend.

It’s looks kinda unlikely how we’re best friends; Eric is a gothic and a very “guy” guy with big hair (black and red spiky mullet).

And I’m Aryssa…Blonde, girly but foul-mouthed and dirty, and not at all popular, kind of a misfit…

Which is one of the many things that Eric and I do have in common.

The music I listen to is also unlikely, I mean I grew up listening to KoRn and stuff, now it’s mainly industrial, metal, techno and anything else really but when I discovered MSI, I knew that they would be my favourite band. Music is definitely my first love.

Eric saw me come out of the bus.

“Hey!” he said as he walked over to me.

“Sup Mothafuckaah” I put on a sort of Gangsta voice.

Eric laughed and we headed towards the venue.

I started randomly jumping up and down.

“We’re going to see MSI!! We’re going to see MSI!! We’re going to see MSI!!” I screamed.

“Ok, calm down, junkie!” He laughed. “Haha. Let’s just go inside…”

We were there early. My idea of course, being the obsessive fangirl.

Walking towards the building, we noticed a big-ish group of people hanging out outside. They seemed to be gathered around something-or someone-And I had to go see.

“Eric…”

“Ya, what?” He replied.

“Maybe we should go over there, where all those people are…”

“Umm ok” He said unenthusiastically.

Something drew me over there. I don’t know what it was, but I just had a feeling that…

“Oh My Fucking God!” My words interrupted my thoughts.

I had stopped walking.

Jimmy Urine. Was standing only a few yards away.

The singer of Mindless Self Indulgence! My hero! My God!

Although he had his back turned, I knew it was him.

He was signing kids’ stuff and taking photos.

He started to turn around. I froze.

Then our eyes met, he was even more beautiful than in photographs and videos. I was completely focused on him and we were both frozen.

Nothing apart from Jimmy existed.

Then I snapped out of it.

“Duuuddee!! Is all I heard Eric say. “Hey Ryssy, you ok?”

I realised that I had just been fantasising, I felt my cheeks go red.

“Umm yeah! I’m good!” I said all of a sudden being happy and loud.

Jimmy came over to me and Eric.

Oh God. Oh God Oh God Oh God!

“Hey, you guys here for the show?” He turned to Eric and me.

He smiled. That dazzling smile, aww I want to jump on him!

I stuttered to answer, but Eric just said:

“Yeah we are” And he smiled back at Jimmy.

“But she’s the bigger fan, not me!” he pointed to me.

Which brought his attention to me again.

Thanks Eric.

I blushed. But then I looked at Jimmy. Eyes deep in to each other’s.

“Seriously. Everybody is being weird today!” Eric said in a half-angry, half-humorous voice. “The chavs didn’t go near me, -though I’d kick the fuck outta ‘em anyway- Then Aryssa kept staring off into space…And now Jimmy Fuckin’ Urine is…Sorry…” Eric started to talk calmly again.

Eric is from Scotland, before he moved down to Peckham (Chavvy side, London) 4 years ago; I didn’t have much people to talk to…

I had friends, just not close ones.

No one seemed to want to know him and judged him by the way he looked.

So we seemed to fit in pretty well together.

Jimmy laughed. His laugh was cute.

“Nah don’t worry about it,” He said.

Now Jimmy looking awkward, I realised I did too.

It was weird how I felt when I saw Jimmy. Sure I was excited! But didn’t expect this. It was as if I’d fallen in love…Oh pull yourself together Aryssa! For fuck’s sake! He’s 37…He’s just a famous person, you’re just imagining the tension…Right?

Then why the hell does it seem he looks like he feels the same?

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~~End of Pt. 1 ♥~~

[defenestr8]

“Can I hold you?”

I said in my head. My god, I want to hold him!

It really was awkward. Sure, we got pics with him, he signed some of our stuff…

But I felt…empty, I guess…

A big dark rain cloud came over, and started to pour down on me.

Everyone started to go inside -although it was hours before the gig- and get ready for the show. Eric started walking inside.

“Ya comin’ inside ‘Ryssa?” Eric turned round to me. “It’s getting wet now and-“

“I’ll be in, in a moment” I wanted to think a moment what had happened, the tension I mean. Oh it happened so quickly!

“Mmkay, I’ll save you a spot at the front” He closes the “backstage” door, I’m now, pretty much all alone in the middle of the car park, and it’s raining.

The cool water drips down my face and throat, I sighed.

I closed my eyes and slowly rolled my head back, facing towards the sky.

Then I put my head down, facing the ground.

I opened my eyes, Jimmy was standing right in front of me.

He face was a few inches away from mine.

He spoke.

“Aryssa wasn’t it?”

I was shocked, in the best way ever. He’d taken my breath away already.

“Yes,” I smiled and then blushed. “And you’re Jimmy” I giggled.

“Haha. Guilty as charged.” Was his reply.

‘…And You’re Jimmy??’ Ahh! Aryssa you fag! That was pretty obvious y’know?

I felt embarrassed by my stupidity, for some reason…I wouldn’t really had felt that stupid if it was some other famous person I liked.

I felt my cheeks go even redder.

I suddenly ignored my thoughts and looked up at Jimmy.

He was really close to me now.

“You’re really pretty up close ya know?” He then said in a sorta romantic low voice.

I smiled, he strikes another one of his dazzling smiles back.

Then I lost control of myself a bit.

I tilted my head slightly to the side, he did the same.

We both leaned forward a little (As we were already really close)

And leaned in for the kiss, it was amazing.

Half of my instincts were telling me not to go for it, Half did.

I couldn’t help it, he was too tempting.

He placed his hands on my waist and he held me perfectly.

We were kissing in the late morning rain.

It was the most beautiful thing ever.

My life hasn’t always been that great, Eric’s the same…but when I was 14 my dad died of cancer. Then, my mother -who I thought I knew- got remarried just 2 weeks after my dad’s funeral. When my step-dad moved in, he didn’t like me one bit, he could make my mum do things, as if he was controlling her like a robot. She even started to hit me, HARD, which she had never done before. Later that year, I met Eric, the only one I could actually talk to. My life has been pretty much pointless and never really feeling good about myself. I haven’t had many boyfriends, in High School I was the freak. And when I did have boyfriends, they just used me as a sex toy and a piece of meat and then broke my heart.

But, when I met Jimmy it was different. It was like all of a sudden my life had meaning, like it was destined to happen.

I opened up to Jimmy about my past, after we kissed we went inside and talked a little. I felt a powerful bond growing between us very quickly.

“So now you live on your own?” He asked.

“Yeah, tiny little flat at the top of a tower block, it’s nothing much but it’s better than home.” I sighed. “And Eric lives right across the landing” I added.

“Cool” he said, looking down at me, and then he pulled me closer to him into hug.

“Sounds like you haven’t had that great a life” he said sympathetically.

“Nope.” Was my answer, I just held him tight.

He took me backstage, we were talking and laughing as we walked to the dressing room. I started to wonder, where the hell is Eric? Oh my God I’ve forgotten all about him! He will be so pissed off that I’d gone off with my “Rockstar Boyfriend” I bet he’ll say…He’s not my boyfriend, yet? I think? I mean I had only met him less than half an hour ago, but I already seem so close to him…Ahh! Stop thinking about Jimmy! Worry about Eric you faggot! My God, he’ll be waiting there for me…

My thoughts were interrupted again when Jimmy opened the dressing room door and Eric was sitting there having a beer with the guitarist Steve Righ?!

“Eric! I thought you’d be in the arena getting a space at the front and you’d be pissed off with me ‘cos I went off!”

“Ryssy! Hey! Naw I’m here, partying!”

“Yeah and don’t worry about not getting to the front, we’ll get ya there” Steve added. I was pretty relieved and the same time wanted to laugh out loud but I just smiled and said:

“Awesome!”

Jimmy looked at me and kissed me on the cheek, we smiled at each other.

Eric looked puzzled at this but then grinned, it’s Jimmy Urine, he does unexpected random shit like that, and Steve was too busy drinking Budd to notice. Jimmy walked up to the fridge beside Eric and took out a bottle of Budweiser, I caught a glimpse inside when he opened it – It was full of alcohol. This is my kinda place!

“Want anything Ryssa?” Jimmy smiled.

I walked up to the fridge trying not to look hasty.

“Whatcha got?” ok that sounded as if I was desperate for a drink.

Eric giggled, I gave him a play-dirty look.

“Eric, you laugh like a girl!” Eric pretended to look hurt, then took another gulp of some un-identified drink, and I’m not sure I want to know what it is.

“Well, there’s beer, more beer, Bacardi, Bacardi Breezer, random shit, more shit or orange juice” Jimmy listed.

“She’ll have the orange juice!” Eric laughed.

“Shut up Eric, I’ll just have Budweiser, everyone else is!” I said turning from Eric to Jimmy.

Eric was still laughing to himself at his own joke.

The four of us sat down on the beanbags in a circle drinking, chatting, laughing and camera whoring, we all made funny faces.

Jimmy looked over at me and gave a dazed smile, I smiled back.

Steve looked between Jimmy and me,

“What’s goin’ on?” he grinned,

“What?” Jimmy laughed.

“Come on, I know! Jimmy you don’t normally act like this, especially around girls” Steve’s grin got wider.

I blushed, fuck!

I saw a silent moment of negativity between Jimmy and Steve, Jimmy was gazing at him, wide eyed and a bit embarrassed as if to say “Shut the fuck up, Steve! Why can’t you talk to me in private about these kind of things!” or something like that. And Steve was like “Hmm? You feel different about her? Oh…” They were talking through their eyes; Eric glared at me as if to do the same, I gave a clumsy smile back at him. Jimmy and Steve were best friends, just like Eric and I, it must just be a “best friend thing”…

I looked down at the carpet, the laughter and conversation had died and had become awkward, there was no point trying to start it up again.

Someone please break the silence, please. I can’t stand it.

Just then, Steve Righ? Got up, slowly.

“Well, I need to go prepare for the show and practice!” He said, smiling slightly.

“Since when do you practice?” Jimmy said coldly and took another swig of his beer, Steve left.

“Bye Steve,” Me and Eric said at the same.

Wow, that was a really bad moment between Steve and Jimmy, they’re normally like…8 year old boy partners in pulling a prank.

“Yeah, I guess I gotta go too…” Jimmy said turning round to me and Eric.

I stood up the same time he did.

“Ok,” I said sadly.

He held my waist and looked in my eyes and kissed me softly.

He started to walk away, I felt like crying, that it over? Then Jimmy turned around,

“I’ll be back” He smirked. I smiled back.

Jimmy walked out and I plunged back down on the beanbag and turned to Eric, he turned to me.

We were both grinning, ready to burst into hysterical laughter.

“Aryssa,” Eric said slowly “What the fuck!”

“I don’t know!!!” we laughed and chinked our drinks together.

Life was actually getting a bit more interesting.

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End of pt. 2♥

[defenestr8]

The show was amazing, they played all my favourite songs! And when they came on and I ran up to the stage ready to loose it; Eric couldn’t keep up with me! Jimmy was moving about and doing brake dancing as usual, Steve striking out the chords on his rumoured 4-string guitar –yeah, it wasn’t just a rumour after all-, Lin-Z jumping around and slammin’ on the bass and Kitty hittin’ the beats on the drums was as good as it sounds on cd! It was the greatest night of my life, although it wasn’t over yet.

“That was-“ Eric started.

“Fucking awesome!” I finished for him.

Eric, whose hair was perfect before was now a mess and sticking to his face with sweat, just smiled and said “Yeah!”

As for me, I looked crap too, needed to go to the ladies room and refresh myself I thought.

“Eric,” I turned to him as we were walking out of the small arena.

“Aye” He replied.

“Umm, I need to go to the bathroom and fix my hair, and face at that”

“Okay, yeah I need to fix my hair too…” He admitted, Eric was vain when it came to his hair, he cared about his hair more than I cared about mine, but I still loved him.

I went into the bathroom to fix myself up a bit, I looked in the mirror, I looked a state. Jimmy had invited us round backstage to party with them after the show. I think there are many girls out there that are so jealous of me right now! I mean, c’mon I can feel it! But what will happen after tonight? Did that kiss really mean something or does he kiss every other girl that comes to the shows like that? I was going out of my mind! So many questions! I was loosing myself in the bathroom. Calm down Aryssa. Just don’t think about, let time answer those questions! I told myself.

I forced my thoughts behind me and continued to brush my hair, and then I re-did my make-up. That’s why I was acting so self-conscious, Jimmy.

I gathered my things and left the girls’ public bathroom, some of the woman in there were starting to give me strange looks anyway.

As soon as me and Eric stepped into the dressing room, I was greeted by Jimmy with a hug and a kiss, when he saw me his face lit up.

“You’re here!” He said delightedly

“Hey,” I kissed him back.

“Yo, bitches!” I heard Steve say from behind me. Eric and Steve bumped their fists together. They already had a handshake?

“Suuup,” said a female American voice, I turned round, it was Lin-Z. She smiled and giggled, she was the cute, shy type of girl but still had attitude.

“Hey you must be Aryssa, I’m Lin-Z” She put out her hand for me to shake it.

“I know who you are” I wasn’t going to make the same mistake I made earlier.

Then Kitty came out of nowhere with a glass of wine in her hand.

“Hey! You’re Aryssa aren’t you?” Kitty gave me a wide grin.

“Yeah, it’s very nice to meet you Kitty” we shook hands and kissed each other on both cheeks, just as she kissed the left one, away from Jimmy, She whispered in my ear:

“Don’t worry, he told me all about it, you’ll be fine and good luck with Jimmy, he may not understand some things in the way of love but he’s just that kinda guy, try to speak his language” Kitty’s voice was low and soothing, but still feminine. She was known to be the nicest member of the band; I already think she was, although I didn’t quite know what she meant.

“Who wants to have a big fat orgy?” Jimmy yelled, we all laughed at him.

“I DO!!!!!!!” Eric yelled.

Ahahaha. I loved them two. Me, Lin-Z and Steve all laughed at this remark, Kitty just gave her “O…k?” look.

It was fun. We drank, we shared banter (Mainly Jimmy and sometimes Steve), we laughed, danced, bonded and the night ended with Steve and Lin-Z passed out, Eric sitting on one of the bean bags with bottle in hand, ranting to himself and Jimmy and didn’t actually have as much to drink as everyone else.

“Y’know what’s the worst thing about these days? Sporks! I mean what the fuck are sporks??!! Jesus Christ, man!” Jimmy and I laughed hysterically at what Eric just said, I can’t wait to tell him tomorrow. I was sitting on Jimmy’s lap on one of the chairs, I looked down at Lin-Z lying on the floor passed out and then to Steve on the beanbag also passed out next to a ranting pissed Eric.

“Don’t worry, babe,” Jimmy told me, noticing me staring down at them. “Them bitches ’ll feel like shit in da mornin’, but they’ll get betta” He said in a sorta rapping voice. I giggled and we decided to go outside.

Surprisingly, there weren’t any fans waiting outside wanting to get shit signed.

It was just me, Jimmy and the actually beautiful night.

We stood up against the wall of the building, the stars were out but kinda hard to see because of the city lights. We were silent.

“So, what would you normally be doing tomorrow?” Jimmy finally asked me

“Get up early, go to first job, working in a supermarket, have lunch, go home, go to second job, waitress in a café, have dinner, come home, see Eric, maybe go out, watch TV, bed.” I said with a half smile at the end. “It’s like the same everyday for me, quite boring and quite lonely” I added.

The slight happiness drained from my face as I remembered.

“Oh, and my mother and my step dad come over kind of a lot,” I added onto that.

“Hmm, you mean just for a visit?” Jimmy asked me, eyes staring into mine through the dark.

“That’s one way to put it,” I said as I turned away from Jimmy to look towards the city.

“Whaddya mean?” asked Jimmy, looking sympathetic, anxious.

“They still beat me in my own apartment” I confessed sadly, unable to look at him, to be honest I said it quite fast.

“What?” he said more firmly and not really a whisper anymore. “Oh My God”

I burst into tears at that point and looked up at him, he kissed my nose and held me, voice back to a whisper.

“Baby, don’t cry! You’re being very brave not to go to anyone, I love you” those last three words were the highlight of my life.

Jimmy started to cry too, which was strange because he wasn’t really the crying, flowers and hearts guy and I couldn’t believe it.

“It’s not just that thought!” I yelled trying to hold back tears as I loosened from his grip slightly and looked up at him, “It’s just…”

I slowed down and my voice became a whisper again.

“It’s just that, I love you and tomorrow I’ll need to go back to my awful life and you, y-yy-you…” I stuttered, my thoughts hurt so much I couldn’t speak.“Y-y-y-you’ll…” You’ll go back on tour I tried to say.

I saw how Jimmy was looking at me, puppy dog eyes, crying…Just gazing hard at me without saying anything, I thought he would never say anything but then…

“Come with me” the words trembled out of his mouth in a whisper. “Come with me” He repeated louder this time.

Oh my god! My heart was racing! I’m so stupid I didn’t see this coming! Such a turn around! What to do, what to do!

Oh well, what the hell! I don’t need this shithole!

“Ok!!” Was my answer, loud and clear.

“I love you!” Jimmy said through tears

“I love you too!!” I replied, we kissed each other firmly on the lips, it was an honest thing to say, I never felt more right in my life.

Is this going to be the start of an adventure? We’ll just have to find out…

“Just one night to change it all,

Has my life turned upside down or rightside up?

Just one night to change it all,

Just close your eyes,

It may all be over soon, or has it just begun?

You’ll never know what the future holds…”

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End of pt. 3 ♥

[defenestr8]

psot your favorite msi fanfic itt

[Danny]

My Prediction:

No one will read this.

[Sandra Vangarden]

People need to learn to keep things to themselves.
I would never ever EVER show anyone those horrible Harry Potter fanfics I did, no never.
Ewww.

[defenestr8]

JACKPOT

http://community.livejournal.com/msislash/

[BURT GUMMER > JESUS]

My Prediction:

No one will read this.

true... bc i just finished part 1 and will read the rest tomorrow bc im going to bed

[defenestr8]

My Prediction:

No one will read this.

i make the worst threads

[BURT GUMMER > JESUS]

i make the worst threads

um no.... right here. notice how i dont make them anymore

[defenestr8]

JACKPOT

http://community.livejournal.com/msislash/

i read the top thing here and now i think im gonna throw up

[Sandra Vangarden]

i read the top thing here and now i think im gonna throw up

1. Jimmy lost his ass-virginity when he was 15.

Yeah I'm done too.



Actually, I read it too, and just giggled.

[A la Sprode]

Just on the rebound....hahahaha. Majorly disturbing.

[Little Dead Girl]

i just wasted way too much time

[defenestr8]

Just on the rebound....hahahaha. Majorly disturbing.

Wordlessly, Jimmy laced his fingers between those of his – well, he wasn’t sure what Steve was to him at that moment. Was he still just a friend; his band mate, or was he more?
“Steve?” He looked. “What are we?” he asked carefully.
“We’re lonely, Jimmy.” The singer took this as the only answer he was going to get, and silently followed Steve into the sleeping cabin.

WHAT THE FUCK